I’m not perfect and I will never claim to be.
I struggle daily like many people and veterans alike with various ailments and issues. Like Bo, I am just as fucked up with Crohn’s disease and the dirty succubus likes to rock my world daily. With 12 surgeries under my belt and 7 being within the past year alone, I’d like to believe I’m a badass, but most of the time, that’s just not the case.
Suicide and depression come into play frequently, plaguing my already chaotic mind. Between the attempts and struggles, I try to find solace in the little things. I am a single mother and animal lover. I use whatever avenue I can to overcome these thoughts and sometimes it just doesn’t feel as though it’s quite enough, but then by morning, I am usually able to start again. Life is constantly changing and throwing whatever fancies the seasons at us and most of the time, I am able to weather those storms.
I paint, travel, and explore as I can. I strive to find the beauty in this world and a lot of the time it can seem scarce. I have an example to set for my daughter and at this moment in time, I am not quite sure which is harder: setting the example or fighting my demons. Maybe they go hand in hand and I overthink things, but it’s hard to shut-down a brain like mine. I hope one day to be able to look back and say that I made it, that I survived. That would be one hell of a story to tell.
For now, I am just DV Fox and I am doing whatever it takes to survive this so called life.
Article written by: DV Fox, Air Force Load Toad, Cat-Lady, & Wonder Mom.
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